When I was between the ages 3 and 6, I was tortured by my mom’s boyfriend, George. He did plenty of horrible things that shouldn’t be done to anyone, let alone a small child. He made me drink an entire bottle of medication and dropped me off at my grandparents’ house with my eyes rolling to the back of my head. I remember another time where he had the tub filled with water, held a bar of soap in my mouth and pushed my head under the water. I struggled to get some air to breathe. I grasped for the soap dish to try to pull myself up while he continued pushing my head back under the water. Another time, I remember him shoving the poop from my sister’s diaper into my mouth and he forced me to swallow it. He often pulled out some of my hair. He’d punch or kick me. I’ve seen him kick my mom in the mouth on the side of the road, then drive away, leaving me, my sister and my mom to walk home. I remember my mom often crying and telling us that she loves us.
George did many other things and there are plenty of things I don’t remember. I grew up with many evil thoughts and assumed God hated me. When God revealed Himself to me when I was 19, I became a new person. I’m forgiven because of the sacrifice Jesus made on the cross. His Spirit cleansed my heart and gave me an enormous peace.
I often pray for George. I have no idea where he is, but I wish I could see him so that I could tell him that Jesus loves him. Jesus willingly became whatever ugliness our hearts cling to and that ugliness was beaten, tortured and nailed to a cross to die. Jesus rose from the dead to prove that this world is not the only world.
I forgive you for whatever you have done to me. God bless you. You were a big part of forming who I became in life, but God played a bigger role. He is using it to demonstrate to what depths His love will go. I know that what I went through is nothing compared with many other people in the world. It was very difficult for me and I am still affected by your actions. But the bad is nothing compared to the great good that I experience in Jesus and nowhere near as bad as the good that will one day be. Jesus is not a fairy tale. He is real. His Spirit really changes hearts. God bless you, George.
~ Fabio Mir II